Reclaiming My Nights: A 3-Year Journey to Beat Insomnia

In the middle of the night, my alarm clock started ringing. Still deep in sleep, I barely noticed it at first, but the sound grew louder and louder. Suddenly, I opened my eyes and thought, Wait, is that my alarm clock?

"Alarm clock!" I said to myself, realizing what it meant—it was 5 a.m.! I couldn't believe it. I had actually slept until 5 a.m. for the first time in years.

I grabbed my phone to double-check the time, just to be sure. And there it was—5:00 a.m. sharp.

You might not understand why this moment felt so incredible to me. For years, I've struggled with severe insomnia, averaging only about two hours of sleep a night. For the longest time, I dreamed of going to bed at 10 p.m. and waking up naturally at 5 a.m. But after 3.5 years, it finally happened last night. ( 18th of Nov, 2024 )

I was so excited, I checked my alarm clock twice, just to confirm that this wasn’t a dream. It felt like a miracle—an ordinary moment for most people, but an extraordinary triumph for me.

I’ve tried so many sleep medications prescribed by four different doctors, and even experimented with hormone replacement therapy, hoping for relief. I’ve taken extended vacations just to try and rest. If you’ve ever had just a few rough nights of sleep, you know how hard it can be to get through the day—but for me, it’s been an ongoing battle.

The lack of sleep has taken a serious toll on my health, leaving me with random symptoms almost every month. It’s been incredibly challenging, both physically and emotionally. Only someone who has experienced this firsthand can truly understand how overwhelming and exhausting it can be.

So, you want to know how I overcame this challenge? It has been a long journey filled with countless attempts and experiments.

The real turning point came when I shifted my mindset toward self-healing. For a long time, I had a strong desire to heal, but I was always seeking help from external sources—doctors, medications, even the support of family and friends. This time, I decided to change my approach and turn inward.

I began reading books like The Emotion Code by Bradley Nelson and The Breakthrough Experience by Dr. John Demartini. Practicing the techniques from The Emotion Code brought an unexpected lightness to my feelings, almost as though I was clearing away emotional burdens. Applying the insights from The Breakthrough Experience made me realize that my body was trying to communicate with me through the symptoms I was experiencing. Incredibly, even my long-standing issue with constipation disappeared as I started to listen more closely to my body.

However, my sleep problems persisted. That’s when a friend told me about someone named Brian Scott, who creates guided meditations on YouTube.

As someone who has been meditating for over 10 years and takes their spiritual journey very seriously, I was immediately curious. I decided to try two of his meditations: the Merkaba Meditation and the Akashic Prayer of Transformation.

During the Akashic Prayer of Transformation, I had a profound breakthrough. I experienced an overwhelming release of intense, suppressed sadness—like a volcano erupting after years of dormancy. The meditation brought me back to my childhood and allowed me to reconnect with my mother, who passed away when I was just seven years old. It was an experience unlike anything I had ever encountered—a powerful release and a profound healing moment. It happened 6th of Oct, 2024.

I was overwhelmed by what happened during the meditation, and I felt compelled to explore what my mother was trying to convey. This led me to try one of Brian Scott's guided meditations, the Ancestral Healing Meditation. What followed was another breakthrough—this one even more intense than the first.

As I meditated, tears poured down like heavy rain, and an overwhelming grief gripped me so tightly that it felt as though my heart might burst. For a while, I stayed in this emotional storm, unable to contain the surge of sorrow and release. But amidst this intensity, something extraordinary happened—I found myself surrounded by my mother, her parents, and my beloved aunt, who had passed away during COVID.

The moment was a blend of overwhelming joy and deep sadness. It felt as though I was standing at the crossroads of reunion and farewell, a sacred space where time didn’t matter. Slowly, the intensity of the emotions began to subside, and I felt a sense of calm washing over me.

I began meditating again, and in this shared space, everyone joined me in meditation. Love and joy enveloped us like a warm embrace, and our farewell became a graceful, peaceful parting. It was a moment of healing and unity that I will never forget—a reminder that love transcends all boundaries, even those of life and death.

In that moment, I instinctively knew what I needed to do—my body, mind, and soul were crying out for my attention. It might sound strange—after all, who am I if not my body, mind, and soul? But I felt as though I had reached a place where I could observe all these parts of myself from a higher perspective, as if standing above them with clarity and compassion.

Years of spiritual study had undoubtedly prepared me for this realization. As pure awareness, I recognized a deep desire, a determination, a will to heal every part of myself. What I needed to do was simple yet profound: listen and pay close attention to my inner self.

And so, I did. I made meditation my priority, immersing myself in it as often as I could, every single day, for over a month. Through this dedication, I began to feel the quiet power of healing unfold, one moment of awareness at a time.

Brian Scott, an incredible and dedicated spiritual teacher, has created an extensive collection of guided meditations tailored to almost any need—it feels like he has something for everyone. I began exploring his work, tuning in to what my body needed, and selecting a meditation that resonated with me each time.

I began my journey with Brian Scott's Blissbody Meditations and The Reality Revolution in Health, gradually exploring many of his other healing guided meditations.

Within just two weeks, I started noticing improvements in my health. My intuition for listening to my body and mind grew sharper, helping me identify what I truly needed to heal. One meditation that stood out was Revision Meditation, particularly Neville Goddard's Revision/Recapitulation Meditation. I listened to all of Brian Scott’s Revision meditations and applied the practice diligently to myself. The results were remarkable—my vitality began to return. My energy levels increased, and I felt joyful for more hours in the day than I had in a long time.

Then came the Soul Retrieval Meditation. This practice led to a profound reunion with my own soul—a part of myself I hadn’t even realized I’d lost connection with. Through sincere and repeated practice, I rediscovered a sense of wholeness, with my soul, mind, and body now centered and aligned within my world.

This newfound harmony brought a sense of deep satisfaction I hadn’t felt in years. I felt truly good—not just physically, but emotionally and spiritually as well. It was a transformation that reaffirmed my faith in the power of dedicated self-healing.

As I continued my journey, I noticed how deeply I was drawn to Neville Goddard’s teachings. After reading his work through Brian Scott’s guidance, I decided to try Neville Goddard’s Sleep Meditation. And what a revelation it was! It felt like a mother’s gentle lullaby, with his words, “Isn’t it wonderful? Thank you,” soothing me into relaxation.

When I first started, I didn’t fall asleep easily, but I felt deeply comfortable and relaxed—something I hadn’t experienced in years. Then, after about two weeks of listening, something began to shift. My sleep wasn’t deep at first, but I noticed the hours I slept were steadily increasing. Encouraged by this progress, I stayed diligent and consistent, meditating and imagining each day with unwavering focus.

I also began incorporating revision into my routine, both in the morning and before bed. Each night, I would mentally review my day and reshape it the way I desired. For instance, even if I hadn’t slept well, I revised my belief, imagining as if I had slept deeply and peacefully from 10 p.m. to 5 a.m. This practice shifted my mindset and reinforced the reality I wanted to create.

Once I began to regain energy and vitality, my confidence grew. I embraced the next step with a burning desire for deep, restful sleep. Every night, I visualized myself going to bed at 10 p.m. and waking up at 5 a.m., holding onto this vision with faith and determination.

Finally, after SIX weeks of consistent practice, revision, and deep learning, my dream came true. I now go to bed at 10 p.m. and wake up at 5 a.m.—just as I had envisioned. This transformation feels nothing short of miraculous, a beautiful testament to the power of persistence, imagination, and self-healing.

This journey has taught me a profound lesson: the power to heal and transform lies within us. By shifting my mindset, embracing practices like meditation and revision, and committing to self-awareness, I discovered that change begins with belief and consistent effort. Neville Goddard’s teachings, paired with Brian Scott’s guided meditations, became my compass, leading me back to vitality, joy, and restful sleep.

What started as a struggle became a remarkable journey of self-discovery and empowerment. Today, as I wake up refreshed and energized, I am reminded of how resilience, imagination, and faith can create the life we dream of. This experience has not only restored my well-being but also deepened my connection to myself, proving that even in our darkest moments, the light of transformation is always within reach.

I extend my heartfelt gratitude to Brian Scott for his guidance, which has been truly transformative. I also feel it is my responsibility to share my experience, as a way of spreading the empowering message that we all have the ability to reshape our reality into what we desire. My hope is that my journey inspires and helps anyone seeking change in their own life.

Brian Scott Info: 

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCOgXHr5S3oF0qetPfqxJfSw

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https://sookyungkim.net/

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